Week 6: Rachel comes out of no where!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Drew and Jen are gone.. bye bye? I don't really care haha.

HoH happens and I'm taken out very early in the challenge, say what?! I was honestly pissed but acting like I didn't care.. but I did because my fucking alliance "evicted" me.. all of them.. only James and Scott didn't vote for me to go out of the challenge.. like wtf is up with that? I shouldn't have been out.. it makes me feel uncomfortable and the fact that none of them even told me. I actually WANTED to win that challenge.. it makes me think twice about my loyalty to my final "4" alliance. I don't feel as bad now with the fact that I'm with Eddie more than with them. I'm kinda fed up with it really. I mean I still feel loyal to Rachel because she tells me things and what not but Janelle barely talks to me and doesn't really tell me anything going on, Chelsia basically just wants to flirt with me.. we barely talk about the game when we do talk. I feel left out in their plans and shit so I mean I'll just do my own thing.

I wanted James to win this weeks HoH.. no offense to Rachel.. I mean I don't mind either of them winning because the plan is to backdoor Dave. But James listens to me more and basically decides things with me when it comes to his nominations.. I kind of influence him majorly more than anyone else can. So I'd much rather have him in power.

Rachel basically wants to nominate Eddie and Will.. I'm okay with that to a point but I don't want Eddie up there.. but I have to act like I'm cool with it.. I also don't want Will to go lol, yeah it's complicating but they are suppose to be pawns.. but I mean if fricken Dave wins veto.. the plan is out the window and it's like who the hell do we target then. Theres nobody..

So let's see here I want Eddie safe.. right now. He can't leave! He's not even nominated yet and I'm making a big deal about it. But basically I'm trying to set it up so that whoever wins veto will save him anyway so that he's staying no matter what. Let's see how this works out..

Is Dave seriously retarded? He seems to think he's in good with like everyone and sure everyone likes him but more people want him out than those that are actually being loyal to him.. it's like dude seriously open up your eyes and realize that people talk to each other and that if you were able to get plans with everyone.. that others are doing just the same thing and realize that you have plans with EVERYBODY!

Dave bugs me though.. he doesn't even take time to talk to me anymore so it's like.. whatever Dave.. I'm voting you the moment you are on the block because you were part of the reason i was voted out of the challenge and that's just silly. Ugh this game is just crazy but at least I'm passing this round!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

In the veto challenge.. Dave ended up taking my weak prize and basically making it obvious that he was alligned with everyone else, I mean I know that he is and shit but what does he expect. He just got backdoored by someone he was strongly alligned with. Although I don't like her speech on the board about it because it's so fakish.

So much has been going on in the last few days, I wish I had wrote about it sooner. But basically I've been PMing with Will a bit, that kid is so delusional.

Will's PM:

I am only doing this because I actually like you enough to give you an explanation to what happened. Im not trying to get anyones vote, I already know Im probablly get evicted and I am actually cool with that lol.

The only reason why I nominated you after Janelle won the veto in that competition was because I thought you were well liked enough to not be evicted over Jason. I was shocked when you were eliminated from the competition. It wasnt an attack against you.

You seem kinda pissed last night and I dont blame you. But I think that you understand that I would feel closer to people who have never nominated me or voted to evict me. You voted to evict me the first time I was nominated. You explained yourself to me and I totally understood.But that also showed me where you stood with me.

Clearly we are on opposite sides of the line in this game. I dont really know where that line is, and who is where, but I know that we havent really voted along the same lines and we dont appear to be with the same people. Thats just the way it goes sometimes. I do hope that we cross paths again sometime and get a chance to actually play together. And if by some miracle I am actually still here after this round then who knows what the future of this game holds

My reply:

It's fine Will don't worry about.. theres just a lot going on in this game right now.. the fact that I voted against you had nothing to do with you. I know I explained myself but I mean I knew my friend was leaving that round and I could not vote for him because that's just not the type of person I am, I asked him to play this game with me and that is why I couldn't vote him at that time. He wasn't social enough so there was nothing I could do but at least be nice enough not to cast a vote against him.

As for this game.. you'd be surprised what is going on and we have more people on the same side than you'd imagine.. I can't say too much.. but I can say this.. I am not after you and I never planned to be. I don't want you gone at all. You'll understand more so later.. I just don't know how to explain at this time, so I hope you just trust me on this. I also want you to know that I voted for James to win HoH.. Not Rachel.. I was one of the 3.

Will's reply:

I appreciate that Jessica.

I actually do kinda know whats going on. Im probablly not supposed to and I dont wanna get anyone in trouble so I wont say anything more.

I know its all ridding on the veto competition and Ill be giving it my all.

My reply:

Well I'm glad we have more of an understanding.

I'm not talking about this round.. I'm talking about the future of this game. We're more on the same side than you think.. that's all I'm going to say

This veto challenge is hard.. hopefully I can get the hang of these slider puzzles.

Then Rachel showed me Dave's slider puzzle scores.. and I shared them with Eddie and Eddie gave them to Will and told me to give them to Will too so it wasn't like I was favoring him or anything, so I did and think that gained Will's trust a bit.

Right now this is how things are looking.. Eddie and James want to take out Janelle.. Jason is concerned about if him and I stick with those power 3 that we can't beat Janelle in a challenge and it would be dangerous to keep her in. So if all else fails we could make our own alliance over here.

Eddie is wanting to form an alliance with like Will, Jason, James and myself of course. Which honestly would be so easy to do. I know that if Eddie wins HoH he's going to nominate Rachel and Janelle, it's honestly the smartest thing to do. I mean if I go to final 4 with Chelsia, Rachel and Janelle.. why wouldn't they just vote me out? I mean I know Rachel wants to go to final 2 with me, but she did just throw herself on me and expected me and her to have what Ev and I do.. which is hard to say that we do because a bond like that isn't just like "made", you can't make those kinds of bonds or trusts.. like force them to happen. What Ev and I have is completely different. I do have a friendship with Rachel and she has been trying really hard to prove I can trust her and I do trust her, I don't want her to go. But then she also helped eliminate me in that last hoh and didn't even tell me what she was doing.. she told me after the fact.. but it doesn't make me want to trust her.. Janelle barely talks to me as it is and that doesn't keep trust.

I want to trust this group but we never fully made an alliance among the 4 of us.. it's like I'm more alligned with Rachel.. I don't have an alliance with Chelsia but I really like Chelsia and it's like an unspoken alliance and then theres Janelle.. who does her own thing at all times and that is difficult to work with since BB is more of a personal game. So right now I'm in a spot where it's like.. my main ally is Eddie, he is who I want to go to final 2 with. But I have at least 3 other people that think I want to go to final 2 with them but I NEVER told them or agreed to a final 2 with them.. but they talk of one with me all the time. It's rather strange honestly. I understand why Rachel and James assume one with me, Jason I'm not completely sure why he's assuming one with me but whatever floats his boat. Not that it bothers me that he wants to talk to me about the game and make decisions with me, hey the more people want to be with me and keep me off the block.. the better, I'm loving it. But like what do I do, I'm basically alligned with everyone in the game in some shape or form and I have to figure out the path that least hurts me to get to the end with Eddie.

Okay seriously though, how come nobody can see that Eddie and I are alligned. I mean with Will's PMs he's all we're on different sides.. like seriously dude open up your eyes, we're more on the same page than you realize! We're alligned with the same person and have a general same goal. The only person that really has any idea of my closeness to Eddie is James.. because I told him that I really like Eddie but that's about all I said in that area.

I think Eddie and I are playing really good games right now and working extremely well together.

Right now I have to convince James to want to work with Will again.. and talk to Jason about crap again.. as well as talk to Scott and find out his final 4 or 5 that he is wanting. Let's see what I can pull off, hopefully I'm not missing anything that I wanted to say in here.

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Working on Jason and James was really easy, I didn't even have to say much to have them like convinced of what I wanted them to be convinced of, they are both totally on my side. Jason and I basically agree that the power 3 of Janelle/Rachel/Chelsia is dangerous to keep in the game together and that we can't beat them in challenges and shit. But we both really like all 3 of them and we don't want them to go, it's so conflicting, but we also know in a total game sense that they need to go or at least one of them do. It makes it so complicating..

James totally doesn't trust Rachel after Dave's speech... I don't blame him, I don't have any distrust in Rachel because she told me all these things and was always honest with me the entire game. Which makes me feel bad because I haven't told her EVERYTHING.. well I guess the only thing I haven't told her about is who Eddie really is and that he's my main ally but I'd hope that she'd understand after the game about the reasons I couldn't tell her. Telling anyone would be stupid because it's like automatic "let's take out Eddie" type of situation.

I finally know all of the prizes that are won with Dave, James and Janelle.. I found out Janelle's today because James told me.. I guess Dave told him and he's going to ask Janelle to use it on him and put me up in his place because he thinks I"m controlling this game. Um thanks Dave I'm flattered, but it's not ME controlling the game.. it's Eddie and me . He thinks I told Rachel to put him up.. um no bitch, she wanted your ass up just as much as the rest of us did! We all want you gone... including Rachel and Janelle! Plus Janelle isn't going to use her power on your lame ass when she could use it when SHE'S in danger.. PLUS why would she nominate me when we're alligned! Silly silly Dave.. you have lots to learn .

I told Eddie what Janelle's prize is and so basically he NEEDS to win HoH and then he should be perfectly safe and hopefully I would be too no matter what goes down. It's really complicating now, because I'm starting to play a more cut throat game to see how far I can make it. I think I'm starting to get the urge to actually WANT to win. That would be cool to win a great game like this, I've played a pretty flawless game so far, I mean I've never been nominated and I'm basically alligned with or working with everyone. I have a lot of people that really trust me.. and sure that's going to bite me in the ass but I'd hope it would gain respect if I happen to make it to final 2.

I can't be a pushover in the game and play for others to win, I have to play for me to win and/or my main ally to win. I can't play for all my allies to win.. that really doesn't work what so ever!

Rachel knew about all 3 powers all along from Dave.. and she never told me.. I know her and I have been lacking in communication lately because she's been busy and so have I.. but still, it's a little weird that she never told me about them. Makes me wonder.. ya know?