Week 2: Janelle ownage

[Jessica Hughbanks]

Josh was out.. 12-1 geez that's a lot of votes and of course he came to me and acted all like I did it again to him, whatever I never promised him shit in this game, he started it off with saying "don't talk to me" so what did he expect meh whatever.

I made my sexy Jessica flag for this HoH and then I was basically thinking oh I'm going to try to win this.. but then I sucked at it. Dave was all saying he'd help me win this HoH as long as I wouldn't nominate Drew, which was really odd to me. But I said sure and then Drew comes online for the challenge and Dave is like oh I promised him I'd help him too so I'll help both of you! Err okay Dave.. how you going to manage to help us both win.. weirdo LOL! Let's just say he didn't help either of us win and then Janelle turns around and rocks the challenge, GO JANIE!

I do not think it's wise of her to be showing her challenge whoreness as much as she is but I can't stop her, she'll do what she's going to do but I think it will get her backdoored later on during the game. She has me confused of what she is doing to be completely honest. But whatever, I'm not going to get in her way because I know she'll keep me safe and I'll keep her safe as best I can but if others try to do something I can't throw myself in the way to save her, she's too much of a threat.

She nominated James and Mike.. SAY WHAT?! That's gotta be one of the most WTF nominations I've seen in awhile.. I don't understand it but whatever I don't care. If nominations stay the same and I have to pick between those 2, then I will vote out James.. nothing against James, he's a great guy and I trust him but I have more loyalty towards Mike than James.. sorry dude. Plus James is getting closer to Rachel and in the end I don't know who he'd be more loyal to.. in the end I know Mike would be more loyal to me due to him wanting to prove himself to me. Prove his loyalty to me. We'll see what happens with veto though, one of them could be saved and in a sense I want one of them saved to see who she puts up in their place. But then she could put up Eddie for who knows what reason.. and I can't have that sooo I guess I may not try too hard in this veto because one of them has to be sacrifised and maybe in the end it will be a good thing for me. I am close to too many people as is!

I have to play this smart and continue to tell myself it's a game.. play it as one! I want to make the best moves for me and that's exactly what I'm going to do!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

I finally talk to Janelle about her nominations and she tells me that she feels that James is a threat to our final 4 alliance because of the closeness of Rachel and James. Says that Rachel is getting too attached to James and it's like her showmance or something. Uh okay Janelle.. I getcha but I'm not completely on board with you and agree with you on this mainly because I'm also close with James, my gemini buddy! But HOORAY he wins veto and saves himself I'm so happy for him! I'm glad he will last longer in this game, he definately deserves it, he's such a cool fun dude!

Janelle talks to me about who to nominate in James' place, and she seems annoyed based on the fact that James was her main target. Well she gives me some of her options of who she wants to replace James with and one of the people she named was Eddie, so I kept jumping on her other options because I clearly do not want Eddie up and I clearly do not want her to think that I'm super attached to Eddie by any means because then she'll try to pull what she attempted to pull on Rachel this week with the getting out James crap.

Oh I can not forget about how Rachel first told me that Janelle was thinking about Eddie being a possible nomination.. and I told Eddie right away that he NEEDS to speak to Janelle and instead he writes her a poem and PMs it to her and maybe that did work? NO IDEA but I can't wait to see that poem hehe.

Janelle then out of no where says she's decided she'll nominate Will and asks if I have a problem with that and I quickly say no because I've learnt that it's best not to really have a problem and I mean don't get me wrong, I like Will and all but someone had to go up and for some reason Janelle wasn't going to put up people that I don't care about therefore I was going to have to agree on someone that I care about less than some others.

I was talking to Rachel about this whole situation and we talked about voting out Will over Boogie.. mainly because I'm close with Boogie and I feel he'd be more beneficial to me. We talk about how it strategically benefits us more to take out Will because of his close connection with Dave and Dave has enough people up his ass, he doesn't need to keep them. I feel that Boogie would more likely go after Dave than Will ever would. Alright so Rachel and I are on the same page.. about pretty much everything in this game, including our concerns about how Janie is playing this game. We know that Janie would never turn on us and all that good stuff and we wouldn't turn on her either but why is she showing herself to be such a threat? I will never understand..

Meanwhile Eddie pops online and tells me that he's voting out Boogie and then he has to go but points out that he's sure I'll vote out Will.

Then I have a chat with James and he was basically pushing for Will to stay and then I basically sat there and convinced him to want Will out.. due to everything I've already said that strategically shows that Will is better to leave. Rachel, James and I get into a chat together.. and we talk about the pros and cons and just really hash it out but don't really come to any conclusions but I do find out that Boogie isn't being very social with people for whatever crazy ass reason! So I go to him and I'm like look dude you need to talk to people!! I'm trying to save your ass but it's difficult when they are all saying you aren't talking to them.. uh-huh.. we'll see.

Then the kicker comes.. Eddie comes online and he's like so who are you voting and I'm basically like, I don't know right now but probably Will and then he goes on this huge thing to save Will and wants me to save Will and totally throws Mike under the bus, which is to be expected, I know that he doesn't trust Mike from his experience with him. But I do feel I can trust Mike, but I mean of course Eddie makes great points about Mike.. I know he's screwed me over before. I know what kind of player he is and can be. But it just makes this situation weird for me because I would love to work with Will as well but I don't know Will very well at all and I am one to rather have people that I know how they work around.. people that I can read.. than those that I don't know at all and that could easily play me and then who is the fool. I know that Eddie really likes Will and that's one of the reasons he wants him to stay over Mike. But I just want Eddie and I to be able to work together and do things together and not have it a competition between us. Which is exactly what I told him.

So now what do I do? I told him I'd think about it, I want to be loyal to Mike but I just don't think this is the game for us at all. So I'm really leaning towards going back and possibly voting Mike out because I don't want to stick out if everyone else is voting Mike ya know? So I think tomorrow I'm going to do some snooping around to figure out who is voting in which direction. I do in a sense feel like it's a mistake to get rid of Mike though, as well as I do feel like it's a mistake keeping Will in. BUT Eddie has reassured me that he has Will more on his side and on the same page as him and that Will sees that Dave is a huge threat and doesn't fully trust him to the extent that I originally thought.

Oh and I must get this out.. Will thinks he has my vote to stay because him and I talk a lot? Uhh Will I don't know which conversation you thought you were having but you must have mixed me up with someone else because umm.. that wasn't talking a lot, we barely have spoken at all! But whatever if you want to protect me based on that I'm all for it.

I realize that sure Dave is going to be powerful and yeah I've started to form a small army against him but maybe I need to be IN the army against him as well as connected to him in some shape or form and just kind of be tied both ways. I know that Eddie is good at what he does and I think I just need to let him make the call on this one. But I'm not sure, I trust him completely but do I trust Will? I know I can trust Mike but I don't think my allies can.. not that my allies can trust Will either but I don't know.

I have some serious thinking to do and I need to chat some people up and figure out where everyone stands tomorrow so I can figure out how the heck I'm going to base this vote!

Wish me luck!

[Jessica Hughbanks]

I gave this vote A LOT of thought and in the end I realize that I just need to vote based on what is best for me. I can't think about my allies too much THIS early on. I know that Mike will benefit me more to keep around than Will.. granted I think whichever one stays I'll be good with. I just have to base my vote on who I've talked to more and who I'm closer with. I'm closer with Mike therefore I'll just vote to keep him. It's nothing against Will, I'm just closer to Mike but I'd be happy with either of them staying since I have nothing against Will. We'll see what happens.. Mike seems to think he may have a few votes to keep him and if he does he may very well be able to stay and so I can't just sit there and vote to vote in a majority. Not for this vote anyway. I don't think anyone will care either way of who I vote this early on and that's what I have to truly think and care about.

I know that I won't be voting with Eddie for this vote, but in the long run that could help us to not look like we're working together. Plus I feel this early on the votes don't really matter as much so I'm sure we'll discuss who should go more later on when theres less people in the house to deal with and than we can make whatever we want happen. If him and I have our own groups kind of on different sides of the house, I think that will help our game a lot. That's kind of what I want to do, be able to really control the outcome of the game each week. Let's see if we can make that happen, it seems like a great plan to me.

I have to do what I have to do to get further, if that means voting in a different direction than some people I'm working with than so be it.